hrrumph..... Now angered by something i read... No wonder why my efforts gone to waste... I MADE A GOD DAMNED HUGE MISTAKE.... its a bloody insult to someone who had tried time and again to establish a close friendship, and where friendship was one of the MOST important thing in my life.

The picture is clear now. Its been staring at me in the face all this while. I've had enough. Really. That's too much. Now I'm not even willing to listen to an explaination and I"M PLENTY MAD!

Hear me! For I'm PROUD to be a Victorian. the TOP autonomous BOYS' school around! and NOTHING. NOTHING u HEAR? could EVER beat THAT!

~To someone whom I encourage to try going poly cause there are lots more of neighbourhood school kids there! U'll LOVE it!

santacantfly :(; 10:40 PM (:

The closer I get, The more i feel, the more i understand, the stronger the feeling of being back to basics.... being just me...... I've been making a mistake for the past 1 month....

Just wish there was a shell where i could hide in and just be reclusive.........

Me, myself and my music.

santacantfly :(; 10:33 PM (:

Greatly saddened, Greatly misunderstood and Greatly wronged.

Experienced the mean, Mean and pure MEANESS of sum1. Obviously not a close friend. Merely asked in the chem lab "Wah u still wearing sweater, not warm meh?" The answer was 'Is that ur problem?', in a tone that implied: Get lost! You are too lousy for me to speak to you.

Got freakin' pissed. Leading to the super clumsiness in the lab, knocking the bottle of methyl orange and a conical flask into the wash basin. Thank god they didn't break. At least someone up there had maybe understood my feelings..... my frustrations.....

At leaast, I learnt today about rumours circulating me. No wonder why I'm being avoided like a plague, cause people believe that I'm with someone (One of the reasons I've always preferred to go solo) Ok. Here it is: I have NO feelings or ANY intentions to go into a relationship of some sort with ANYONE. The only thing I've looked for and tried to establish is a close friendship, for both mutual help and support. At least now I know that one of those I'd chosen is a wrong candidate.

Oh ya. Before I end off, I have to apologise to Johnathan and Kwan Loong for my attitude during the egg-drop. And thanks alot for not getting so worked up and throw me aside.

~I'm only human

santacantfly :(; 8:45 PM (:

Quite eventful this weekend. Tutorials pilling up on me..... And the saddening thing is that, MY BEST SUB HAS BECOME A DIFFICULTY!!!!!!!!!!! Could only answer like 2 out of 6 questions. And still trying to find smthing to bring on monday to rpesent to the class.... Still cannot decide what to bring.... Did not go for the outing on Saturday due to monetary constrainsts and the fact that i've already spent the day before out with a few close friends, Wee Kee, Kl and Limin. Though there are other good friends too, I'll probably go out with u guys next time.

Fri afternoon, after giving Larre his B'day card (it was GIGANTIC, partly because we did not want him to keep it in his bag, but to carry it around with him). Signed by many of the M3 people. Then we took a train to Eastpoint. Told my friends that i didn't see what's so interesting at eastpoint and my viewpoint still have not changed.....

Changed into my jeans and shirt, lending Wee Kee my outer layer. Pity he did not have the pants and wasn't allowed to join us in pool... So he walked around the mall alone (feel sry about that) while the 3 of us took an hour game. Hell I can't play pool. Missed like 80% of the shots. At least, while i could not score, I played deny (those who dotaed might understand what i meant:P).

Okok. Finally went out of the arcade. I tried time crisis 3 before i left. Wanna cry le. I really lost most of my dodging skills. Reaction turned slow liao. Then we proceeded to Old chang Kee for a light snack. I chose a Kiddy meal 2(Yeah the guys were laughing at me lorh... Its only food right?) For 3.50, to get a cup of lime juice and a respectable meal of fish and chips, I'd say its totally worth it! Haha. I shoulda videoed this part. Limin dropped her spoon into her bowl of soup, where Wee Kee offered to get her another despite her protests. Which upon getting it, he promptly dropped it...... Back into the bowl of soup.............. Still laughing at the thought of it.

Pity Gao Min could nto join us and went off for The Tp open house. We were abt to leave when she called. Guess I'll see you some day. Gdbye.

santacantfly :(; 10:23 PM (:

Hmmmm.... Spent the day almost in solitude, 'cept for a little conversations from friends and classmates.... Not very nice.... I can't be an avoider le.... Doesn't really work in Jc.... Tiring day and schedule made it worse.... Maybe I should try to be the blender.... maybe....

Spent $9 on a black shirt. Design was beautiful.... Chose an extra large one though... It's not that I'm fat! Just a little on the tall side. Went PE today, ran 4 rounds. Lovely run, thuogh tiring after not running for like 3 months.... Worse, we(the guys), had to try do pull ups.... ALL of us required assistance for like 10 pull ups. Besides, had to do 40 push ups and 40 crunches. Neck very stretched...... I'm sure almost all the class have entered ARMSTRONG club le... And suddenly I feel that I don't wanna go for the Mj college road race, even though its 3.8km, 1km lesser than my VS cross country. heh, I did 4.8KM in 28 min....

Probably going out tmr with my OG. Oh ya. My congrats to the chairpeople: Timothy and Hafiy. I'm sure you two would make a great team! And (hopefully) dedicate ur time and effort to the class. Cheers! (I'm still with the PE job... Have a feeling that its a rotation system, not fixed)

santacantfly :(; 4:53 PM (:

Oh man.... Seriously..... I can't believe I did that......... So much for a little teasing and joking..... And just 2 weeks into school..... Freakin' embarrasing and awkward lah..... I'd rather clock up 50 forfeits than ever doing that again..... At least its a Great load off my mind......... Oh my Oh my.....

santacantfly :(; 5:00 PM (:

Today, I saw a violent display of girls. Whack people like free one.... Eg no. 1-- Took a candid photo of Yu Ling. Was really really amusing. Such photos come only like once in 20 shots. Got whacked for it.. -__-" (You are lucky i trusted you and believed that you would not delete the photo. Big mistake lending you my camera. So cunning.... Or else that photo would be up here le.)

Eg no. 2: Gao Min. "Wah! Everytime you say want to take photos, then you give me 1 whack on my arm. 3 times in school le leh. Now whack me again. 4 times le!" Johnathan. Lol. Poor Johnny became a victim of hits.... Lol Gao Min seemed really affected by Timothy.... cannot stop laughing, like kena laughing gas one..... She tried VERY hard to suppress herself. But when Wee Kee went up to her, looked at her, and said, 'Laugh!'. She went bonkers again....... another common customer of woodbridge hospital.

Final example: My sis. When I reached home, my sis asked, 'Oi! Where's my lunch!!!!!! Told you help me buy le nvr help me!!!!!!' I swear she told me nevermind le over the phone lor.... Then she started her fav past time..... Tryin to chew on my arm..... Lol I jerked my arm and hit her squarely to her face..... 2nd HUGE mistake..... She smiled her evil smile that nearly all older siblings had for their younger siblings then started playing mercy with me...... Wah hand damn pain.... She was like twisting it and when she knew I was in pain, then whack me in the face..... repeated action like about 5 times........ No fair lor..... Girls are sooo violent one........

Sigh... My grief is actually not of being whacked..... But of the splitting of Miranda-3. Real sad to see that happen. Guys! Even though we may no longer be together, our spirits would still merge as one.

santacantfly :(; 5:06 PM (:

Ok....... One of the disadvantages of being in a mised school, and when u get past 16. The pple there (regardless guys or girls), start asking u "Eh! You got crush on any one in sch anot!" (Kwan Loong) How I the world am I supposed to answer THAT question??!!!

I know they make GReaT friends, providing lotsa humour and fun while we are together (yes, I too am sad that M3 is splitting up. WAH!!!!!). But to reveal yourself and your true feelings is abit overboard le lor. Summore was the target of a matchmake..... Where I was suggested of being gay/in love with like 3 pple........

K lah can't talk much... Convo going on

santacantfly :(; 10:53 AM (:

Wow. Jc education was not as easy as it seems.... Thought it was like sec 4 edn. Turns out to be relatively cheem. Lessons started in Mj, with all leassons giving a kinda brief intro to their subject/expectations (wah their talks take like 30 min, leaving only 20 min for teaching).

Maths was surprisingly difficult and demoralizing. Started with a pop quiz. Hell........ i nearly failed. Shocking.... Then the waves of attacks ensued, with new formulas and weird methods (took me some time b4 i finally understood what juggling method or cover-up rule was). Hopefully a little practice shld be able to help me out here.
Next was the chem. Wah the teacher so fierce and hiong one......... Scary subject. So many new definitions. Must memorise!!!! Or else like O lvls liddat... Define an element (1) Define a compund(1). Lucky the formulas are simple.
Econs didn't seem difficult yet. (and i re-emphasize the YET) Chances are it would be difficult to score. So far we only went through common definitions and terms. Arrr had to go for choir auditions. Obviously I didn't make the grade. (Thank goodness. No offense pple but i really can't sing and dun wanna join choir). Wee Kee got in. HAHA, how unexpected. Started calling him by his new name................ WeeKee Martin!!!!!!! (Does that sound familliar? Like the singer of She Bangs? or maybe Livin' La Lida Loca)

Choosing my CCA tomorrow. Gonna try join MJCO. Hope they accept me. Does anyone realise that Mj seems to prefer dancers and singers over other sorta talents?


Sis is chewing on my arm.................... oww

santacantfly :(; 8:28 PM (:

Campfire's burning........ Burn, burn, burn, burn!!!
Campfire's burning........ Burn, burn, burn, burn!!!

I modify this to become.......

I look in the mirror...... Burnt! Burnt, burnt, burnt!!!

Mjc Vincitore orientation has ended, with lessons starting tomorrow. I've become sorta roasted. (check out the skin colour b/w my upper arm and lower arm. Its like roasted chicken and white chicken)

Orientation was great fun, spent the 1st day doing............. lotsa paperwork. Though I've got to say, their ice-breakin' games to make us know each other better wasn't really successful. Also partly due to the time constraint lah. Went learning the cheers of my house Miranda.(Cool!! love the black colour. Lucky I wasn't in Callisto,Triton or Atlas. I've got no green, blue or yellow shirt. Wait I DO have yellow shirts. VS PE shirts shld fit too) The school song was nice, more of a pop song compared to other JCs. 1st day was mainly spent on learning lah. School song, cheers, erm..... VMV, etc. Went home exhausted. Slept like a log.

Day 2: Nicer day. hmmm what did we do on day 2....... One of the ill effects of not posting regularly..... Oh yes. Went for MMM. Or was it M to the power of 3? Some kinda amazing race around the area in the east. Was quite warm, both the weather and the group mates. Took a bus to tampines for the 1st pit stop, walked to the second in Simei, and took lunch at EastPoint. Guys (means both girls and boys) are quite clever to solve most of the puzzles at each pit stop. eg hangman-- did 2 out of 3 without losing any one man. Pity that led to our incompletion. We were too afraid to use the lifelines. Grrr the english. Dumblebore's name HAD to have 5 words in it.

Haha. I still can't forget what E ling was saying when the grp of us were making our way to the 2nd pit stop. While walking past a playground, she was telling timothy not to look up.(There was a sec sch uniformed girl sitting on the playground, oblivious to her exposure. Not gonna go into specifics) By human instinct, timothy went to look. HAHAHA was damn funny. E ling was sighing, "All the boys the same one. Don't have one decent fellow." timothy was like very awkward. :P

At our 3rd pit stop, we were playing.......... (what name was that game? I can't rmb) I still can't figure out how we managed to guess pikachu. Wasn't much of a help in these guessing games. Maybe my brain was plain lazy and refused to respond. Pits stop 4 was our final stop (cause we ran out of time... AGAIN!) My OG was supposed to cross a distance while squeezing on 3 small pieces of cardboard. Summore have to do cheers on the way.(HATED that callisto MOVE IT one. How the hell were u supposed to maintain ur balance while freeing ur arms) Teamwork was present in my OG, helped each other out. Like when sum1 was saying 'Whoa!!!!' (that naturally means he was gonna fall in the next 3 secs) one of us would be swinging an arm over his chest like a seatbelt. At the end of it, the boys had to (sigh) stay in pumping position for the girls to crawl under for full marks at that station.... Arms were abit tired on the hot ground. Lucky for us, the girls were relatively small + short. Or else sum1 may start playing london bridge is falling down. When we got up, got checked for injuries... LOL fear was like crossing Angela's face (Must have thought my palms were cooked by the ground. Not many know that the soles of my plam and feet were red. Well I just one of the lucky few in every 100,000 babies who get this thing) Thx fer yer concern but i'm really, really alright. Rushed back by bus with 2 minutes to spare.

Day 3: WET GAMES!!! WHOO!!!!
Morning was spent with our beloved principal to test our knowledge of Mj's vision, mission and values. While late morning was spent playing games and getting drenched. Loved battleship. Team 1(my team) had 1 casualty while we destroyed the other team. Another game i enjoyed was capture the flag. teamed up with Larre (Another friendly OGL) for the 3-legged CTF. Good tactic and teamwork made it not much of a challenge. 1st 2 teams were to move as fast as possible to grab the flag (baton) and watch for each other's backs, and to help the flag bearer take bullets (actually they were just waterbombs) so that they would not need to drop the flag. Formed a wall of china as defense while moving back to base.

Stayed in school to wait for the campfire. Didn't have enough time to get home and bathe. Damn the bus. took 20 min to arrive. Lucky I brought extra clothes, which are just enough to cover me on the outside..... Was stuck in the singing group in campfire night. What a chore to sing in the afternoon. Half of me was sleeping while the other half tried my all-time favourite song, We're all in this together (from high school musical). By night, skits from each house was very enjoyable. Lucky i was slept in the afternoon, even though it was partially sleeping. Gave me adequate energy for cheering and dancing. OGLs tried their HARDEST to get us 'high'. Haha and my VS-mates from Miranda 5 were downing swigs after swigs of root beer and cheering their hearts out. They even started leading Miranda to run 1 whole round around the campfire. They were just short of carrying someone on their backs and carrying a flag while running. Lol. The wildness of victorians become little tamer in the presence of girls. :P

Went home early that night after dinner at macs/mac. I still can't see the difference. Reached home at about 11. Well, T'was a well spent 3 days of fun. I wanna try be an OGL in the next orientation.

santacantfly :(; 9:16 PM (: