As pain Rips my heart out......... And eats me Alive....

santacantfly :(; 12:28 AM (:

No doubt this is one of the few times i'm blogging (there're just lots of other stuff to do) One such eg would be updating SGC. Hey how often have u been asked to shamelessly praise yourself? For me? Never. And you know what? It is surprisingly DIFFICULT. There's always this element of guilt pulling us back from praising ourselves. We start to ponder..... Eh we really got this quality arrr??? Maybe so. But what have i done to deserve the praise? hmmm.........

I'm currently stuck at personal acheivements...... What did I acheive in my Jc life??? Minus SYF, minus getting a promotion to J2. Let's see..... I have erm...... screwed all my tests, wasted my time in CCA (though yes i like the new batch of J1s), studied hard for nothing and screwed my jc life.

Oh ya and did i say I learnt how to be PERSERVERING and RESOLUTE towards life. In other words, I kept studying for the next test, kept failing, and kept studying for the next test cause i failed the previous one. Failed so much so that I became immune to failing my tests. How's that for being perservering and resolute. Personal acheivement eh?

santacantfly :(; 9:27 PM (:

STRIKE 1:

Ytd- 9.45 am
Event: Received a phone call from Miss Ng. Suggested I go for a weekly consultation for econs.
Reason: Alot of misconceptions in my essays.
Implication: I just killed my essays in my econs Block Tests, and hence, my econs paper as well.
Deductive Statement: I might be saved for A lvls. Just need guidance and practices. Teachers' aren't giving up. Neither should I.

STRIKE 2:

Today- 11.00 am
Event: Mr Goh was going through Block Test Answers. Went through a question he super super emphasized before. No wonder why he refused to let Clarice go that time, even though she was like dying liao le. Made her master that Qn anyway.
Deductive Statement: No matter how badly we do, teachers still want to try and help us(by hook or by crook). They sometimes know that we still quite gone case. Confirm Us. But still wanna try salvage an S out of it.

STRIKE 3:

Today- 2.35 pm
Event: Mr Teo talked to me for a bit. Said he was quite dissapointed with me. Expected better results from my Block Test.(Yeah I was complaining that i kena mark down quite a few times due to sf etc etc. And miss D by 1 mark...DUH! Of course I'd complain!!!)
Reason: I dunno.... Maybe my teachers see some sort of hope in me.... All have high expectations in me la!
Deductive Statement: I must work harder!!!! Have to BREAK THROUGH that 50-point barrier!! Then conquer the 60s!!! Can't believe I'd been dissapointing so many people. Surprised so many haven't given up hope on me. It's time I made my move.

santacantfly :(; 9:45 PM (:

K This is another short post alike previously.
Still in school, got there at about 7. Yeah I'd be about the 1st student in school. No one else and in the early day-break, vv nice to study. So relaxing. I'd wanted to go into my home-room to blast music, since they had speakers. But they were all taken up as exam venues. Nvm Nvm. I'm still back at perkafe.
Oh crap! Some J1s have decided to start sharing this study area. Damned. They gonna make a freaking lot of noise. Go home lah jabroonis!!!!! J1s come sch for what? Make noise only. You don't even have exams la. Hell if they read this, I'm so gonna die.

Anyway, there are quite a few temasekians around. Seem to be some leadership camp or something. Now even got kids from pri sch. Crap la. Damn noisy. I gonna blast my lappie le. K Cya guys in sch later!

santacantfly :(; 8:24 AM (:

It took me ALOT of effort to get out of bed this morning. Mum had to call me like 3-5 times la. So lucky she did not start shouting at me for it. I've got like 4 days left before the real stuff starts. And I can't seem to be able to get the stuff in my head. What a PAYNE!

K before I go for econs tuition (will be joining the clique in sch later), here's a dream that was struggling to hold on to me all morning: I was like today-- about to go to school later, having awoke for the morning. Just that yesterday I didn't go school for any particular valid reason. So I dreamt that I had to try get some form of excuse for my absense in school; Tried to choose between getting an MC or a parents' letter~ Panicked for it!! Cause dunno how to get. Parents not at home!!!

Then, I woke up. Started thinking..... Eh die! I ytd really really nvr go sch. Miss Ng is sooo gonna kill me. Throw in the fact that i nvr sms her that I wasn't going the day before. Suddenly I realised-- hey it's march hols la!!!!

santacantfly :(; 9:06 AM (:

Woke up at 6 today, despite being a holiday. Went school to study. Guess I study better alone and in nice cooling environments. Always love the breaking of dawn. Not too bright, not too dark either. And throw in that quiet and tranquil environment, topping it with the light breeze. School life must have deprived me of these for a very very long time...

Met the clique at about 8. By then, productivity fell.... alot. Stopped doing my econs essay and began to try reading up on content knowledge.... vv shi4 bai4 la!!! Lol. Plus everyone there vv not serious! All chatting away until siu yin threatened for silence for 1.5 hrs.

Also dunno what to say le la. Haha I guess Gratz to Leon for getting a blog le! Maybe update another day....

santacantfly :(; 7:58 PM (:

1 week left to Gp block!!!!

HATED today! (This is gonna be a negative post sry)

Ok school started out with a freaking Chem test on my mind. Tutors said Hydroxy, Carbox acid, carbonyl & amino gonna be tested. Cool man! I'm better in the 1st 3 topics. But I dun get anything from amino. Why are Nitro compunds so ridiculously difficult???!!!!! So obviously I never concentrate on that. Mugged my guts out for the 1st 3......

Cool! The paper consisted of NOTHING but Nitro compunds. I didn't even study that topic, dun understand what petr going thru in class, and u tell me test has all 4 topics? Died like never b4 la! And that's coming from someone who had died MANY times in tests. Trust me on this: Lotsa teachers don't tell lies; They simply don't give you the whole truth.

B4 lunch. Another crappy tutorial: econs. Look I love econs. But if the way you teach angers me, it's not gonna be long before I lose interest. And i HATE teachers who simply CANNOT give some allowance for not doing hw. Hey it's not like I don't wanna do la! Then when I got asked, 'Why u nvr do?' I didn't wanna give crappy excuses like no time/busy etc etc even though they are god-damned TRUE. So I just told her 'no particular reason'. Cool: She shot me down with 'So that means you can't be bothered la!' Notice: that wasn't a question. THIS is EXACTLY what my tuition teacher had told us about. Women in the corporate world, where they need to be a bitch to surpass the men in the field. Perfect example.

I HATE pissed-off bitches!

santacantfly :(; 8:57 PM (: